ROBOTWANDERLUST

is my new journal.

This is done.

So things are ... things.

My applications are officially done for graduate school. Now it's the waiting game. It's a good thing that I'm going home over break so I don't have to worry about it.
But I'm super worried about going home. For a wealth of reasons.
My grandpa came home last night from the hospital. He's still on oxygen and feeling miserable. But he's home.

I had a near breakdown yesterday morning when I got up for class, accompanied by a headache, so I took the entire day off. In the evening, I went out for couple hours and felt like things were going to be okay. But I'm still very ready to break down. Not quite sure of the logistics of the next few days, really.

I have to go do all my shopping tonight and I'm not particularly looking forward to it.

& last night, I watched the northern lights while driving back from Iowa City. Tremendous!

Haven't slept in 4 days. Won't sleep till SAturday. Or will I?

This paper...

ideas...

stupid shit...

things..

death?

...

presentation tomorrow....1/10 my grade?

,,asyas

My life fucking rocks!!!!!!

What a weekend. It's times like this that I realize I could only live like this my senior year. Doing this for four years is much too exhausting.

An article I am working on for the next issue of the paper is coming together so well. I'm stoked.

Today's meeting went exceptionally well. I feel REALLY good about this.

This is sad on a number of different levels:

I deleted facebook. I feel excellent.

Today, my poem is the poem of the day for Iowa's "Daily Palette"

http://itsnt166.iowa.uiowa.edu/YAH%2DDP/08212006more.html


Go read. Thanks.

Great.

There is a fucking BAT in the apartment and NO ONE is home.

I thought you'd all like to read through this. I don't know how it will apply to COLLEGE students (since we all do access the internet via school). All I have to say is that I think (& know) our government is messed up and has no right in saying what people can and cannot look at on the internet (obviously, there are exceptions toward porn, etc.). Think about it -- myspace, livejournal, facebook.....as well as amazon.com, ebay, etc.
http://news.com.com/2100-1028_3-6099414.html?part=rss&tag=6099414&subj=news

Today was somewhat of an anomoly.

I genuinely enjoyed my time at the internship.
I loathed and despised working at telecounseling (not different), but dreamt last night about how I just quit and said "take this job & shove it" to my boss. Today, I almost did JUST that.

...and I finished a rough draft of my statement of purpose. Sweet.

best night @ cornell EVER.

WE HAVE A FOURTH ROOMMATE!!!!

We're OFFICIALLY engaged now.....as in, he asked and I said sure.

Thats right, I said SURE. :)

An added touch of fun.......Mortar Board spelled "Kimmel" incorrectly on their letter of congratulations. THIS IS AN HONORS SOCIETY?

Dane,

Please write.
I need to make love with your words again.
It's been a dry season.

<3 Kelly

I think this may have been my best night at Cornell College in 3.5 years.

Details later.

I plan on writing something in-depth and thoughtful soon. But today all I can think about is Canada and how terribly I want to be there right now and not here. I want to be lost in the wine country and staying in the most amazing town of London on the Thames, exploring the magnificent mall and eating at Kelsey's Irish pub. I want to go back to Nick Vito's and eat ribs and drink amazing Strawberry Lemonaids. I want to go back to the hard, cold rains and the long stretches of vast nothing and abundant everything.

I'm really melancholy today with hints of wistful and nostalgic. I don't want to go back to class for two hours to continue a pretty useless film we're watching. Tonight is infinite nothing, save the band on the OC. I long for it.

More later.